I don't know why I ever even tried to have friends I knew it would end badly and it did. I deserve to just be alone forever. I'm not meant to have friends or family.

my ex "friend" who said he cared about me and wants the best for me, that's the last thing he said to me, decided to show up randomly put of the blue a month later and just piss on mely life and start pointless drama for no fucking reason so, frank vannoy if you ever see this, go fuck yourself and I hope you die.

I am a failure at life in every way and I deserve the death I will soon have

i dont know how many people read this site but im sorry for everything ive posted here i was my friend was telling me to do things and i was trying to listen to him and i posted a lot of stuff here that i shouldnt have and im sorry

agh

ugh

you know, V was always saying "tell me whats wrong why wont you tell me whats wrong you can always tell me your issues" blah blah blah but the reason he stopped being my friend is because i told him my issues and being negative or whatever so what the fuck was i supposed to do lose either way

it's just an eternal loop, every one of them will say "well I'm different it won't be like that with me" but then it is, it always is, no matter what people say, I'll end up alone because there's no way for someone like me to have friends or relationships of any kind

because everyone stops being my friend every time I try and make friends, just like every time I try and fit into a community somethings goes wrong, I'm not supposed to be around people, I'm supposed to be on my own but I just can't I want to be around people

he's just the same as E was, tells me he'll be there for me, isn't, stops being my friend.

V stopped being my friend, he said he wouldn't, he did, everyone always does

if I never post again it's because I'm dead