So, I have a lot of problems when it comes to eating, but not like, an eating disorder, its my family.

If I eat what feels like anything, there's a 70% chance my mum and my sister will get super pissed and annoyed, they'll complain I ate something they wanted, even if I specifically ask for that or get it myself, they complain. I want to eat healthier, I want to eat better, but anytime I try, it causes issues with them, my diet consists mostly of fast food and frozen chicken nuggets, because those things don't cause issues. I can go to McDonald's anytime any day but its expensive, and unhealthy, and takes time, and sucks, and frozen nuggets are just, they're alright but I don't like them all that much, and they're unhealthy.

So I try and eat better stuff, healthier, not *healthy* strictly speaking, but healthier, things like making a curry, or some cheese pasta or something, but it's always met with "Ugh! A I wanted that cheese!!" then screaming and complaining and hating me and it's just not worth it.

It extra sucks because I actually enjoy cooking, it's fun and I feel better when I get to do it, and I eat better so I'm healthier and that makes me happier, but I just can't do it without causing the issues, all I do is cause issues.

I don't know what I can do to eat healthier when all I can do is eat frozen nuggets or sneak out and eat McDonald's, I just want to be healthy and lose weight and stuff, but I can't.
And the worst part is they mock me for being fat, they complain that I'm large, fat, etc. I can't win.

Maybe I do have some kind of eating disorder though, or maybe its something else, I can't eat around strangers, we had a family barbeque the other week and I just couldn't eat anything because my brother invited some girl from his work and I just could not eat no matter how hard I tried, it sucked because all the food looked really good. But then, at restaurants I don't have this issue, I don't know what it is.

~A